Captive Hearts is the first book in my Deviant Hearts series, and is due to be released in late February 2018. Set in contemporary London, Captive Hearts follows Dashiell Slater and Billy Grace's forbidden romance. Written in alternating 1st POV, this extract is from Billy's perspective. Billy's ready to fall, but Dashiell's there to catch him...

"We really must stop meeting like this."

Dashiell leaned against the wall, his legs crossed at the ankle and his hands in his trouser pockets. He looked at ease, and was smiling with all the warmth of earlier.

"You okay?" He bent his head to the side and looked at me, and a small frown furrowed his brow. When I didn’t answer he pushed himself away from the wall and took a step towards me.

"Yes, I'm fine." I was anything but fine, because that smile brought back what I’d seen in his eyes as we’d stood by the wall. He had no right to look at me like that, not when there wasn’t a thing he or I could do about it.

"Are you? You seem very, I don’t know, muted I suppose the word is. Yes, muted."

I wanted to scream. Yeah, I was muted, all right. Muted, meek, mild, compliant, silent. All those words and more were my default mode. It was what was expected of me, and I played my part well because muted and all the rest of it got me through each day.

"I'm okay. I should get back," I mumbled, and I made to walk past but Dashiell caught my arm and stopped me in my tracks. I stared down at his hand, wrapped around my forearm. A few fine dark hairs were scattered over the pale skin. His hands were calloused, as though he was used to rough or outdoor work, but it was his fingers I noticed, long and slender, and I wondered, just for a moment, what he might do with those fingers and how they might feel as they traced their way across my skin.

"No, you're not."

No, I wasn't all right. I was as far from all right as it was possible to be, but I tugged my arm out from his grip. I needed to get back, to the noise and the heat and Frankie's insistent squeezing and rubbing of my thigh under the linen-draped table. That’s what I needed to do, but instead I looked up into Dashiell's big blue eyes, eyes that were looking back at me with concern and compassion. I honestly didn't know if what I was seeing was genuine, or whether Dashiell was under orders from Frankie to test me, and trip me up, but at that moment none of that mattered as I stood there and unraveled.

Dashiell’s arms wrapped themselves around me, holding me up and holding me tight. There was no heat, nothing sexual in his touch, there was just warmth and strength, and I just couldn’t hold back. I cried. Big, fat, messy sobs, and it wasn’t pretty. I had snot running from my nose and drool from my mouth, and I was getting it all over his suit, the suit he looked fuck-off gorgeous in. I couldn't help any of it, and all I wanted was for Dashiell to hold me in his arms, a temporary safe haven from the mess that was my life.

"You can trust me, I'm not like the others. With whatever you need. If you want to talk—”

"There’s nothing to talk about. It is what it is.” I stepped back and dragged my hand across my face to wipe away the snot and tears. The wave was receding, and I was feeling a bit stupid as I battled to regain the control I’d lost that had resulted in me melting into a slushy puddle.

"He's asked me to report any unusual activity."

"So you're a spy? Your daily reports are just going to be a pile of blank pages." Perhaps I should have been angry, but I didn’t have the energy.

"No, I'm not. And I never would be, for that man."

Dashiell looked down at me. His eyes were still kind, but there was something else there too, as if he were thinking, and working something out.

"You don’t believe me? Would I have told you that if I intended to do it?"

"Why would you go against his orders? Frankie's not a man to make angry." If there was anyone who knew that, it was me, and I had the faded bruises and faint scars to prove it.

"Maybe I don't like being told what to do."

"I—" I didn't get any further. Dashiell pressed a forefinger to my lips, and the rest of the words melted away.

"Sometimes you just have to trust somebody, and that somebody's me."

His words were matter of fact, as if my trusting him was some kind of done deal. And you know what? In that moment that was exactly what it felt like. I nodded and Dashiell smiled big, broad and this time just a touch cocky, and God, didn't I just want him to pull me back into this arms.

"Come on, let's get back out there," he said.

He was right, because being away for too long wasn't a good idea, but as I washed and dried my face, and walked through the door Dashiell held open for me, I felt a calm I thought had been lost to me forever.

As we head towards the last days of 2017, I thought I'd post a taster of what will be my first release of 2018. I've still a handful of chapters to go, and the book will need some heavy duty editing (including this extract).

This is Billy and Dashiell's story (DASH-uhhll, although pronounciations vary). That's not the title, because I have no idea what to call it! This is a departure for me, as the story is written in 1st person POV. This is where Billy and Dashiell meet for the first time and it's from Dashiell's point of view. Be warned, it ain't a romantic start...

My thoughts shifted to the beers in the fridge at home and some late evening telly. That pulled me up short. Here I was walking out of a bar filled with plenty of men I could have some no-strings fun with, and I was looking forward to sprawling out in front of the box watching a re-run of Terminator. It was almost enough to make me turn around, go back to the others and let Andy pay for me. But not quite. Maybe I'd drop into The Crown on the way home, the drinks were a fraction of the price and there was always some fun to be had. My hand went to the back pocket of my jeans, feeling the flat little packets. Yep, everything was there for the night ahead.  But there was one thing I needed first, and that was a piss.
Instead of pushing my way out onto the street, I followed the sign to the toilets, pointing up a narrow set of stairs. At the top and down a long corridor, and through another set of doors, they were cut off from the busy bar at ground level and very little of the noise from below filtered its way upwards. Which is why I could hear the muffled cries and grunts and gasps, and the laughter. I hesitated. I didn't want to walk in on a couple of guys getting down and dirty, but I was straining to relieve myself. There was no way I was going make it more than a hundred yards, let alone home. If anybody was getting their end away, they could do the decent thing and lock themselves in one of the cubicles. I pushed the door and it didn't move. I pushed again, harder this time, and it opened an inch or two before it was slammed back. Somebody was deliberately blocking it. Another cry came through the door and a sharp gasp. Whoever was in there wasn't there because they wanted to be, and they weren't having fun. I put my shoulder to the door, and shoved hard. It flew open and I staggered in, just keeping my footing. And stopped dead.
The kid who'd come in earlier was pushed front first up against the wall. There was a smear of red on the wall tiles, from the blood that was running from his nose. His jeans and briefs were half way down his legs but his jeans were tight enough that they didn’t allow him to splay his legs, and all I could think was thank Christ for that.
A guy was pressed up against him, one hand on the kid's neck. With the other, he was rummaging around his flies, his dick already out.
"Fuck off, this is none of your business," he hissed.
"Yeah. Do yourself a favour and go, or wait and take your turn." The words were accompanied by a filthy laugh and I swung around. The guy I'd shoved away from the door was sharp featured, and feral looking. I didn't stop to answer, instead I shot my fist forward. A spray of blood, a high pitched wail and he crumpled to his knees, his hands clamped to his face as he crawled away. The guy just behind the kid fumbled his dick, now as limp as spaghetti, into his jeans. Maybe he thought getting into a punch-up with his cock flapping around wasn't the best of ideas, but whatever, it delayed his reaction and he jack-knifed in two when I landed a punch in the centre of his stomach, before I kicked him and he collapsed into a groaning, gasping ball on the tiled floor.
"Are you all right?" I asked the kid. Stupid, stupid words. How could he be all right? But I didn't know what else to say. I didn't know whether to touch him, to lead him over to the sink and wash away the blood that was already drying around his nose and upper lip. But there was one thing I did need to do. I pulled out my phone, ready to call the police.
"No. No, don't do that," the kid barked at me as he yanked his jeans up.
"What? But—"
"I said no. The police can't be involved."
His voice was shaking, but I heard the determination in them. And the fear. Why—? And then I remembered the older guy whose arm the kid had been draped over, and the men milling around looking like extras in a gangster film. Men who wouldn't appreciate the involvement of the law, even if it were to investigate the attempted rape of one of their own.
"Besides, there's no evidence. Nothing happened, and there’s nobody to take in for questioning. Look around you, they've gone."
I turned around. He was right. I’d been so focused on him that I hadn’t heard the vermin who'd attacked him crawl off, hopefully to die, but I'd not hit either of them hard enough for that.
"Thanks for your help, but I'm okay. I'm just gonna clean up before I go back down." He stared at me, and I had the feeling I was being dismissed. I'd served my purpose, and now I was being given my marching orders. And that pissed me off no end.
"No." I crossed my arms over my chest and met his stare.
He scowled and turned to the sink and grabbed a handful of paper towels, which he soaked and dabbed away the blood with. I stood and watched because I wasn't going to be given my orders by a snotty teen. Whether he liked it or not, I was going downstairs with him and was going to explain what happened to his boyfriend, or whoever the older guy was.  At least I'd have done what I could and the rest of it would be out of my hands.
The kid dried his hands and turned back to me. You wouldn't have thought anything had happened. He looked composed and calm, and somehow bland, which was one hell of a trick to pull off for somebody as gorgeous as he was. He narrowed his eyes as we studied each other. He was certainly a lot younger than me, maybe as much as seventeen, eighteen years, but as I looked into a pair of jade coloured eyes, 'kid' no longer seemed right. There was a wariness about him that went way beyond his years.
"So you're not going to go and forget this happened?"
He said the words slowly, as if he were considering the consequences, and my resolve wavered. Maybe he had his reasons for not wanting anything to be said, and I was just going in heavy with my size tens.
"O-kay. Can you just say you saved me from a mugging? Please?"
That didn't seem right, to lie about what had almost happened, it was too serious but I already knew I'd lie for--
"What's your name?"
"Billy. Billy Grace."
Billy Grace. The name taptoed down my spine, and I shivered. I swear I shivered.

It's Snippet time once more, and I'm back with another taster from Bernie, Barista Boys #4.
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Context: Jared's just turned up at Barista Boys...

“I hope you don’t mind? Me dropping in like this, I mean?”
  “No, of course not. Why would I?” I’ve been waiting for you all day. 
  “It’s your place of work, but I was doing some shopping close by.” Jared nodded down at the department store bags he carried. “This is really, really nice.” Jared looked around, and Bernie did too.
  The rough brick walls were covered in posters and prints, and shelves held books and magazines. Flyers lay around advertising gay-themed film festivals, shows and cabarets, and there was a blackboard, small but prominently placed, with the chalked up telephone numbers and websites for LGBTQ advisory and health services. Small round tables with mismatched chairs filled the main floor space, and a battered, squashy sofa was pushed up against the wall. As Jared looked around him, Bernie felt like he were seeing the café with fresh eyes.
  “Let me get you a coffee.”
  “Oh, you’re a life saver. That sofa’s inviting.” Jared sat down and looked up at Bernie. “You going to join me?”
  Bernie swallowed. He’d been about to ask Jared through to his office, where they could talk in private, away from Pete’s sharp eyes.
“Sure. Macchiato? That’s what you had at my place, and in the restaurant last night.”
  Jared tilted his head. “You remember what coffee I had?”
  “Coffee’s my profession, so yes.”
  “So your interest in me is just professional?”
  “My interest in you is – not professional.”
  Jared’s smile broadened, but he dropped his gaze and rearranged the bags that lay around his feet.
  The muted chatter of the customers, the hard tap of metal on metal as coffee grinds were discarded, the whir of the milk frother, all of it faded to nothing for Bernie as he stared down at the man who’d left him standing dumbstruck outside a tiny Italian restaurant just the night before.
  “I’ve got a guilty pleasure.”
 Bernie’s stomach tightened and his cock twitched as he looked down into Jared’s dark, pupil-blown eyes.
  “Yes?” Bernie croaked.
   Jared licked his lips, and Bernie’s cock jumped.
  “What I’d really like is one of those milky coffees, topped with whipped cream and loads of syrup. A complete and utter sugar rush. That’s my guilty pleasure and I have to indulge it every so often.”
  Bernie laughed, and Jared joined in.
  “You little shit,” Bernie muttered under his breath.
  “Yeah, I know. Sorry.” Jared grinned.
  “Is that really what you want?” Bernie quirked his brow.
   Jared nodded. “Does it offend your inner barista?”
  “For the price I can get away charging for them? Not at all,” Bernie said with a smile. “You can have whatever you want, whenever, and always on me. Give me a minute.” 

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I'm an infrequent Snippeteer these days, but thought I'd drop by with an offering from my latest release, Bernie, the fourth and final book in my Barista Boys series. On a balcony, and overlooking night-time London, Bernie and Jared share a kiss...

Bernie stood and held out his hand, and pulled Jared up to standing. Their bodies bumped into each other’s, but Bernie didn’t step back, and nor did Jared. Just a heartbeat apart, Jared’s breath was warm against Bernie’s fevered skin. Jared’s eyes glittered as bright as the city lights against the inky sky, and Bernie’s heart tumbled into freefall. His breathing hitched as his gaze dropped to Jared’s mouth. Soft full lips, damp and slick, parted. Bernie shivered and his skin goosebumped as he pressed his lips to Jared’s in a slow, tentative kiss. Bernie closed his eyes. Rich chocolate combined with the warm spice of the wine on Jared’s lips, but there was more, there was the taste of Jared himself, and it was sweeter than any chocolate, and more intoxicating than any wine could ever be.

Bernie, Barista Boy #4 is now available exclusively on Amazon. Find Bernie here.
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I've just come back from a writers' retreat. 

There we were, eight MM Romance novelists, spread across two caravans on a storm swept site on England's south coast. Torrential rain, winds that rocked the 'van and threatened to send us tumbling down the hill towards an icy English Channel... And the seagulls. Some of them were the size of a large dog/cow/pony (delete as appropriate). We took our lives in our hands, and it was fabulous, every single minute. There were mountains of food and rivers of wine. Add in a pinch of gossip, a liberal dose of drunken story telling, and our combined body weight in laughs, it was a recipe made in heaven to create the perfect weekend.

It was great fun, but it was also very productive because we all worked as hard as we played. Word count targets were surpassed and even obliterated in one case. Great strides were made on WIPs, and some even finished. I beat the word count I'd set myself by over a thousand words, which made me a very happy bunny indeed.

Times like this, whether it be a day, a weekend or longer are invaluable to authors because writing is a solitary pursuit. Sure, some of us might pitch up in cafes, or libraries, places where there are others milling around. But it's not the same as time spent with other authors, writing side-by-side with them, offering encouragement and support. It just isn't, trust me on that. 

The next retreat, no doubt, will take place on another out of season, windy caravan site, buffeted by wind and rain and stalked by mutant gulls.

I can't wait. Bring it on.

Bernie, the forth and final installment in the Barista Boys series, will be hitting Amazon's electronic bookshelves on 27 October. You can find the blurb on the My Books page, under the Barista Boys tab

I've loved writing this series, and I'm going to miss my 'boys' when I wave goodbye to them. The important thing is that they all sail off into the sunset with their happy ever afters because, let's face it, I've put them through the wringer. But who said the path to true love was an easy one? Not me, that's for sure.

It's not just the guys' stories I've enjoyed creating, it's also been about the Barista Boys cafe itself. The place is obviously fictional (yeah, really) but it is loosely based on a number of cafes I've been to, not just here in London but in also in Amsterdam and Utrecht in the Netherlands. A happy international mash-up!

And of course there's Soho, which I love. It's a bit scruffy and there's still a vaguely louche air but it beats with life and energy, and it scores bonus points for being the home to The French House, one of my favourite pubs.

So, it's time to drink that final coffee and indulge in one last muffin before we wave the boys, and Bernie, goodbye...

I'm doing a bit a throwback for this week's snippet. This is from Stevie & Mack, Barista Boys #3. Poor Mack, sweet little Stevie has completely wrong footed him!

"Are we just going to look at each other all night, or..?" Stevie's lips quirked.

"I could look at you forever."

"Or you could kiss me. Or I could kiss you. Mmm." Stevie stepped in closer. "Yeah, I could kiss you. I like that idea. I like it a lot."

Long, thin fingers entwined in Mack's hair. Stevie's palm against the back of his head, sure and firm, pulling him down, bringing Mack closer to soft lips, damp and parted.

Mack closed his eyes as their mouths met. How had he ever thought he would ever be in charge? Stevie had captured him, bound him in chains, and made him his.

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I'm back with another snippet from Connor & Ash, Barista Boys #3. Poor Ash, he's got it bad!

Connor was everything Ash had told himself he couldn't have, yet the man had got under his skin. And who was that man? Boyfriend? Lover? Whatever the label, Connor made him happy and restored his belief that there was good to be found in the world. When they were apart, it was as if the lights dimmed and the shadows advanced. Each day he found himself waiting for Connor to walk into the cafe, his eyes turning to the door every time it opened. It didn't matter that Ash may have been in Connor's bed just hours before, entangled in the  crumpled sheets, or that they'd be together again that night. When they weren't together he ached to see him, be with him. Every ring of his phone, every message that dropped into his in-box, if it wasn't Connor Ash dropped in disappointment.

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It's been a while since I submitted a snippet, but I'm here and rectifying that with a snippet from Connor & Ash, book three in the Barista Boys series. Available on Amazon, to buy or read in KU mybook.to/BaristaBoys3

A little context: Connor and Ash's relationship is all hunky-dory, at least for now, and Ash's thinking how he welcomed Connor home...



Ash opened the door to the cafe. At 6.30am he should have been tired. Instead, he was buzzing.

Connor had returned from Dublin the evening before and Ash had stayed overnight in the hotel. He'd already been stripping off before Connor had slammed the door shut. They hadn't even made it to the bedroom. Ash rubbed at the base of his spine, at the small patch of sore, chafed skin. Jude's chatter washed over him as he thought back to the previous day. He'd been hungry for Connor's return, and the man had fed him without stint, holding nothing back. Their fucking had been a frenzy, full of heat and need, consuming them both.

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ShiMMer. What can I say? 

A lot, actually.

Things like: what a great day, wonderful vibe, reconnecting with hugs and kisses with old friends, and making new, had a shed load of fun, ate too much chocolate and a cup cake or two (side eyes Helen Juliet...) .

I think you get the picture.

On 1 July, at Aston Villa FC, I had the honour to meet some great people, including those I've admired from afar. Jay Aheer, for example. What a talented artist. Stunning, stunning work. I had to go up to her to say hello, and I did that with lots of people because as all who have met me know I like a bit of a chat!

I consider myself to still be a newbie in the MM world, and there's a big part of me that is amazed that anybody reads my books - seriously, no false humility going on here - so when I'm told that my books have been read and enjoyed, I have to pick my jaw up from the floor. But I was told that yesterday and it was affirming and made me feel validated as an author. So what did I do? I pushed my sugary swag onto people as a way of saying thank you. You really can't have too much Haribo. Well, you can, actually.

And I have to talk about the readers, the people who make it possible for authors to exist - if it wasn't for you coming to events like ShiMMer and buying our books, we wouldn't be writing. It really is that simple.

​So, thank you, to the wonderful ShiMMerettes (I feel like bursting out into a bit of MOTOWN). Fiona Rachel Warner, Suzanne Burke and Sue Brown, and to everybody else who helped put together such a fab day. Ladies, I had a blast.